Indian fast bowler S Sreesanth has opened up about his battles with depression and why the recent demise of Bollywood actor Sushant Singh Rajput, who hanged himself on June 14 in his Bandra home, impacted him so much.
“You know I was scared of the dark at one point. I couldn’t step out of the house and I didn’t let anyone step out of the house because I feared that I/ they would get kidnapped. I was in a deep depression at the time,” Sreesanth told the Deccan Chronicle.
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“I had all these thoughts in my room but I couldn’t leave my room without a smile on my face because my parents would not have been able to handle it. I didn’t want to show my weakness to them,” he further added.
34-year-old Sushant Singh Rajput was found dead in his Bandra flat by his friends and house help. Mumbai Police are investigating his suicide after it was found that Sushant was undergoing treatment for severe depression.
“I was completely on my own in these moments, I was crying all the time trying to figure out where I went wrong and what happened to me. I was living this dual life and it was too much to handle,” stated the pacer.
“I was Sreesanth to the world and Gopu to the family, but in my room, I didn’t know what I was. It was there everywhere I turned, the easy way out, but my family kept me sane. I had to stick around for my family. I knew they needed me,” the 2011 World Cup and 2007 World t20 winner said.
“That’s why the news of Sushant Singh’s (Rajput) death affected me so much, besides the fact that he was a good friend. I was on that edge but I walked back because I knew how much it would hurt those who believe in me and love me,” he signed off.
