"I don't beat myself up because of inconsistency", says Holder.
West Indies Test captain Jason has admitted that the transition from being white-ball captain to "just a player" was tough for him, though, said a break from leadership will allow him to recharge his batteries.
The all-rounder was replaced by Kieron Pollard as the West Indies’ ODI and T20I captain last September and it has not been smooth for him to adjust to the new demands.
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Holder told the Cricket Collective podcast on TalkSPORT, “To be quite honest, it has been tough transitioning back just as a player. In hindsight, it has been tough trying to understand how to get back in as just a player.”
The Test captain also admitted that he has been struggling to perform over the past year, especially with the ball, as he has managed just seven wickets in his last 10 ODI innings, but he was confident that his best is around the corner.
He added, “Performances obviously haven't been there as I would've probably liked, but I'm not too disheartened. I don't beat myself up. I don't get too worried because I know my ability. I know what I can produce. I just know that an innings is around the corner, a bowling effort is around the corner.”
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The all-rounder explained, “I don't think it's long before you see me getting back to my normal self. I'm very, very confident. I don't think it's a question of my ability. I know my ability. It's just performing and producing. As I said the structure and dynamics have changed and based on how things have gone, it is little to no time going in to bat. So, I just have got to find ways to cope and produce in the short stints of batting at the international stage. I will work it out. I am confident it will all fall back into place.”
Meanwhile, the 28-year-old – who has more than 150 international wickets across formats, also said he needed the break from leadership to refresh himself after being exhausted both mentally and physically having played a lot of Test and ODI cricket.
Holder signed off by saying, “I felt I needed the break after the India series [in December] particularly, just to refresh. I had played every single series in the entire year [in 2019], I played county cricket as well, and my batteries needed a little bit of a recharge. Obviously, I needed some time to go and think about how I wanted to go forward as a player and try to work out again how just to be a player as opposed to being the captain.”
(With ICC Inputs)